Ugh. A Writer Rant.

After sending tons of query letters and receiving tons of rejections, my confidence is very low. I'm considering hiring an editor.

Maybe even self-publishing. I wanted to take the traditional route, but that does not seem to be working.

My book is lower Middle Grade and it is very long for that category. Maybe it needs to get chopped up. I need an outsider who can read my book and give me honest commentary. But it's so hard to find someone with a good reputation who doesn't cost hundreds and hundreds of dollars.

I am at a low. I feel like I have wasted so much time. I want to keep writing and begin another book, but will that be a waste as well? There are peaks and valleys to writing, no doubt. Right now I am in a valley with concrete shoes and the dam just broke.

The most frustrating part? I pick up books, read them, and they suck! How do some idiots get published while other don't? Is it all about who you know? Or maybe, who knows you...

I read an article recently about that sneaky old JK Rowling. She published an awesome book under a fake name. Guess what? Nobody bought it. Until they found out her secret identity. Then everybody was lining up to read it.

She's a talent, a superstar, no doubt about it. But she can't even sell books without her name. It's a wonder Harry Potter ever took off to begin with.

Leading me to the next variable: LUCK. Look, I don't even want to be the next mega-star author. Honestly, I don't. I just want to be published. Please, God! Pick me! Pick my book please! What God, what will it take!

Ugh. I'm so sick of writing right now.

Yet, I must write to cope. [Never stop writing]